Freakin' Out the Control Freak

Ave Maria:-)

Oh my, first things first ... Top of my bucket list is Giving Thanks for the whirlwind months of July and August -- with that same wind most likely to invade last quarter of 2015...hello Sept, Nov December...Phew ang sobrang hangin Now a gentle breeze is refreshing, soothing. A strong wind ruffles the hair, with your contact lenses getting out of place. Now a whirlwind , hohoho -- it can possibly pave way for the following to happen :1) loss of one's poise 

(it's a female thing ) 2) calamity looming on the horizon 3) loss of peace coupled with loss of "I -can-handle-this-situation" demeanor ... Eh darling...whirlwind nga eh, syempre hilo ka... 4) how's about loss of balance/ equilibrium --in Tagalog slang - puedeng windang-windangan mode. 

Who amongst us would always, always want to have things under control? Say aye! 

 Guess I can safely guess there is that little Mr. Control Freak in each and every one of us because we absolutely don't want to be taken by surprise : unless the surprise is a wedding proposal form your beloved, winning that lotto ticket or some other nice thing... but to be surprised by unforseen events, situations that ruin our plans, our goals, our daily routines -- hehe -- that's where our true mettle gets tested.

So we can each have our quota of these unforseen, very unwelcome situations and they can visit us by way of : affliction whether it's us or someone close to us.. break-ups, financial difficulties, family trouble , maybe depressed, angry or resentful  mode that has lingered far too long, hindi na nakakatuwa -- and just takes the joy out of our life. 

The older we get, and hopefully the more accomplished, experienced and successful - the more we are tempted to be "in control" . Add to that these voodoo ideas of certain modern gurus who preach that : With the right mindset/heartset You Can Be in Control . Susmaryosep.. millions fall for it only to  painfully discover later on  that there is a Greater Force out there, and it is not Bill Gates ---  soon enough we humans realize : 

"Ay ...di pala puede i -control ang lahat. Bingo"    

   

Our precious slice of life has been to take care of Lola Lina the past 2 months -- when her health crisis came it was a "whirlwind" -- we weaved our way in and out of the ER of hospitals -- this soon developed into the hospital visitations/check-ups / lab tests galore -- You'll know it's the whirlwind when your normal routine is affected. Sorry you can't work at the same pace -- no make that : "tigil ka kaya muna mag work"?? hahaha kasi no maid and no one else to take care of Lola Lina. Even some church activities had to be limited... we donot have a spic and span home -- but you try to have some semblance of order and cleanliness -- well , that too had to go to the cutting board -- kasi you can only clean and attend to house chores when the situation and strength permits hahaha, glory to God...thank You Jesus.

I think tho' there was a constant that the Whirlwind could not vanquish or disrupt and that was Prayer, prayer...more and more prayers by way of availing of the sacraments ( the Anointing of the Sick so vital for the sick and mind you not just for the dying- healing of mind body and spirit ang kaloob nito) , the holy mass especially , the rosaries constantly prayed  ...never hurried but entering its mysteries so as to understand the life of Jesus, the spirit of Jesus  and in understanding this we get to understand our life better, praise the Lord.

We think we pray too much but there is no such thing -- prayer when it becomes our way of life eventually enters our speech, our thoughts, our deeds, our actions -- so that Prayer which is communion with God makes our very life the Consequence of Prayer.

It is not that we are spared the cross , but we get bathed in the same light that surrounded Jesus in His sufferings -- then most marvelously we begin to understand the meaning of it all -- well not in one click - haha you wish , but certainly... we realize the wisdom of God in allowing us to face whirlwinds in our life. 

Accompanying Lola in this episode of her life helped Dilbert Josh and me discover our personal strengths and weaknesses -- and then always that perennial question : Do I have enough faith in God? or What motivates us ? Syempre there are times you'll be groggy and be robotic -- doing things routinely -- but you also ask yourself -- may love/pagmamahal paba sa puso ko? Talk about discovering you're not cut out to be a saint aray ko , hahaha...very humbling talaga. yung akala mo mabait ka pero , ngekkkk dami mopa aayusin sa sarili mo..hahaha..praise God.

My dear friends, thank you for all the prayers -- Lola is still up and about -- she has as of this date secured the clearances for her diabetic, pulmonary (TB), heart, gall bladder condition --- so that she is now awaiting schedule by the O.B. gyne dept for surgery on her prolapsed uterus..buwa in bisaya.

She went thru her Golgotha but Jesus and Mary and the saints and angels accompanied her. She had her own tortured feelings re loved ones who could not be with her --and that can be more painful than physical pain... But God has his reasons nga eh.

Yesterday was the Blessed Mother's birthday - how fitting that we would be at the hospital -- that Lola Lina could hear the noon mass even as she suffered her vomiting fits -- I was asking her kung uwi naba kami -- but no she wanted to hear mass, recieve Holy Communion , and most of all ask for a blessing from Mama Mary. We had no flowers but someone gave the last rose for her and she was able to offer that rose to the Blessed Mother. 

Ay naku naiyak talaga ako paglapit niya kay Mama Mary because who better understands the pains we go thru than the mother of Jesus, who is our mother too.

I think after hearing that beautiful mass at the small chapel of East Ave...with the choir so anointed in their songs, with a Filipino and foreign Chinese priest concelebrating -- and recieving our Lady's help --- you can face the wind... no matter if its a whirlwind , because the might of heaven itself is praying for us all..imagine all those saints and angels praying for lola, for our family... and yes for you and me, my dear friend. 

In the end we don't care about being in control... we care more about Knowing GOD is Fully Irrevocably In Control.

and that whether it is joy or sorrow sent our way that in the end Thing Work Out 

May our Blessed Mother intercede for us all on this her birthmonth. Take care po...............................Te Mye